Blame it on the alcohol!

so pretty much i think mine and my friends drinking is getting a little bit to crazy i mean it seems like everytime we end up doing some shit that we will regret in the morning lol however i got to say it makes for pretty interesting entertainment(LAAAAAVEIT)lol. I was talking with mariel the other day am we came to a realization that even if we have never liked any of the boys at the party we still go and say "you know i used to have the biggest crush on you" and we have never found them good looking. also kissing is like a must at a party don't know why but when the drinks get into the system it becomes "i have to find someone to kiss central" and at our party there are no guys that we would kiss when sober. This is not every girl no no, there are the girls that go out and say "WHY DOES NO GUY WANT ME?" and then they start listing every good quality they might have like "i'm a nice person, i think i'm pretty, i love EVERYONE"
then from there they will start to find any guy they can so that they can ask what's wrong with me! and the guy will always say nothing and you will continue to cry about your problem to this poor guy that just happened to be walking by you at the wrong time!

Yeah pretty sure we should stop drinking so much but i am pretty sure it's not going to happen lol.

was it worth it "baby"?

your such a lying bitch stop telling me all this shit that is not true and stop telling your friends that you still care when you really don't i mean i don't care anymore it's just that your so pathetic! stop trying to always come out the good guy i know no one will see through you but believe me i do. 6 hours, 6x, wow i really looks like six is just a bad number. oh yeah forget it i am not going to tell you anything about who he is you can kiss my ass.also seeing you read that letter was like clearness to my eyes i glad it did what it did to you so now you know.

Man that hurts

So the other day i let lucas shoot me with a fucking BB gun and it hurt like a bitch oh my gosh but at least i have tried it so i am feeling pretty good lol i know i'm a loser lol

i miss sam

oh man we were so young back then and UGLY hahaha but i love my friends more then anything!

What's wrong with you.

Yeah i realized that this is a huge thing for me to ask of you but what do you think this is doing to me but fine if you don't want to be a part of this then don't go have a happy fucking life! all i have to say I can't believe when i need you this much you turn your back on me and after all the stuff we have been through.

don't drink and drive

Let's just say i am happy to even be alive!

After a long and painful process i have come to the understanding that this was not a punishment but a blessing from God. I know it may seem crazy me saying that but when i sit down and think he could have let me die in this car crash he could have made me another one of his angels but no, he saved me and for some reason i think that i have a bigger plan like i am here to help someone or to do something good. Not only that but it seems that once i had this accident i started living, before i was afraid to do anything that my hurt me or my turn out bad i was always taking the easy road in life but once this blessing happened i can tell you the air smells sweeter i stop and listen to the world and people around me i love my family and friends that much more. so I am not bitter i am well who i am because of this.

I do have one more thing to say however please

DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think you know who you are!

So i can't talk to you i think you are actually a bit stupid when it 

comes to talking to girls i mean it's not your fault i think you were just born that way. I mean maybe on day you will meet a girl that just as weird as you and socially retarded as you and you guys can go and make socially retarded babys!

just a bit

I feel like i have to get everything out now because i am never on the computer so here i go!

I am afraid that i am going to lose touch

I am happy for you knowing what you want to do

I think your such a dump kid like you don't even know

I thought you were cute but i am never going to tell you 

because it's way to weird.

I am glad we got back to normal

I kinda wish i could have just seen what would have happened.

I think i may always have a little crush on you.

I think you should get the fuck out of my dreams

I wish i could be a little bit nicer to you i know what you do is always 

in my best interest.

I want to be like that.

I just can't see you as anything other then a baby

I will always love you just we can be

I think we should have a one night stand because your hot haha

I can't wait to get my money.

my ears fucking hurts.

I want a tattoo .

I can't stand you .

Sorry about lying to you.

I need to stop thinking about food(but i love food)

Can i wish for a kiss

I don't know how to tell her i need help

I wish you would tell me if you have ever liked me.

I wish you would stop acting drunk!

The guys i like stop talking to them.

Yeah

please get your own mind 

because seriously it's getting old you doing 

everything i want to do.

you don't know that i know

So pretty much i think your soo annoying 

and i think your fake as shit like can you please just

grow up and stop acting like a child and you 

can say shit about me all you want and really i don't care.

Mariel and lindsay

Guys i miss you i feel like i have not seen you in forever

finally

I GOT THE JOB!!