I'm gonne party till the police shut us down.

I'm talking pedicure on our toes, toes

trying on all our clothes, clothes

Boys blowing up our phone,phone

Drop-top, Playing our favorite cds

Pull up to the parties

trying to get a little bit tipsy.

Don't stop make it pop

DJ blow my speakers up

tonight imma fight

till we see the sunlight.

Every time i'm doing home work i wanna sleep

I don't want to do anymore ENGLISH! it just makes me really tired!!
=(

Your beautiful the way you are!

The mirror eats her mind, and so the acid eats her throat.
How much time does she have left? when will this perfunctory gag become the final choke?and who will hear?Rushing water muffles her cries, leaving her with a sense of desolation deep inside the funhouse she calls home.Everytime she opens her mouth, the dark entity of self-loathing swallows her screams,preventing them from being delivered to the one person who could fix everything..... herself

Your reflection = My imperfections

You lie to me.You never call.I'm always the last to know.It's them and me standing outside looking in.It's there insiders.It's me with nothing.This think attached to me and unable to let go.You laughing.Me crying.You happy.Me never been more depressed.You on your way.Me running in the same spot.You jumping.Me planted wanting to leave.Your reflection.My imperfections.Your heart beating fair.My heart barely there.You voice.My screams.Your wishes.My dreams.Your life.My death.

Just for the holidays?!

Just for the holidays I would like a boyfriend lol ok i know that sounds bad alright i will explain myself! ok so you know that reach for the stars, over the fence, world series kinda feeling yeah i'm not looking for that AT ALL!!! ok i just want someone to keep me warm when walking from one location to the next lol and hold my hand and kiss me when walking under the mistletoe.I MEAN IS THAT SO WRONG??....... i think not! However after the holidays are over I desposit of him like one of those one week use cameras lmao just kidding... but... seriously. anyways you can love the idea or hate the idea either way i don't care i'm just telling you what i want.

well happy holidays bitches!lol

mean + fake = me or so i'm told

Oh you make me laugh you call me mean and fake but you only call me mean because I am not really that nice to you and i'll tell you why it's because you have to be the most annoying girl i have ever met so i'm not fake at all i will admit i am mean sometimes but it's only because i don't like you so deal with it and see you know i don't like you so i am doing my job well i guess.AND you call me fake look who can't even say this to my face not only can you not say this to my face you can't even put your name on it!

I look so good without you.

Got me a new hairdo looking fresh and brand new since you said were through. Done with your lies, baby now my tears dry you can see my brown eye ever since you said goodbye.

let's fall in love.

let's pretend baby that you've just met me and i've never seen you before.
I'll tell all my friends that i think your starin and you'll say the same to yours.
i'll call you in three days not to soon not to later.
and you'll call me on thursday and we'll hangout all day and fall asleep on the phone
and i'll hold your hand when we drive.
well fall disgustingly fast and well stop hanging out with friend and they'll be so offended.

and the blood rushes.....

I can't believe i did that i have never done that in my life OMG this is so bad
why oh why did i do this wow i am so stupid oh man this is really bad!

WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!!!!

What the hell is going on!
I feel like i am actually losin my mind i feel like nothing makes sense anymore
i like you i don't i like him i don't i like them i don't i have no idea.
that night you were so cute and then sometimes i stop and think to myself why but
i know why and i know he knows that you and i can't be because he is the blockade now this does not
have to make sense to anyone but me because this is my blogspot this is my life and why should it have to "make sense for anyone but me" because think normal act is just a part i portray.

i don't know anymore

you both hate each other or so you thought then one day after work your friend forgets to pick you up. well he walks past laughing saying wow go home you force him to give you a ride. as you come up to you drive way he says ok get out! you roll your eyes but thank him and start walking the little bit of the way he would not drive you. as you start walking you hear him calling your name so you look back and he is right there and he gives you a kiss on the forehead is weird moment then he says see you tomorrow and runs to his car and drives away before you can even process what just happened!

ok when i think about this i mean it could very well happen but the thing is you hate them at first right but do you really hate them and then the feelings just show up or do you always like them but you think you hate them?

and way is it that you can competely think someone is so gross but then they will do the smallest thing and all of a sudden your falling for them. is it your actually falling for them or is it that you work with what you've got?

2 thumbs way up!!

omg mariel you were so right about this movie

it's super cute i think i am in love with the guy.

i mean i thought he was cute before but know wow.

and ok if any guys was as cute and sweet as "tom"was holy

shit i would be completely head over heels i know i know

he really does not exsist but i don't care!!!

such a cute movie

halloween big boi

HOLY SHIT
i am soooo fucking excited for halloween omg you don't even know like
i think i could be the best one so far.first a concert which is going to be awesome
and then hopefully a party i mean i need a party halloween is not halloween with out getting shit
faced haha jk of course....
anywho my birthdy is coming up and i think i just wanna party i mean i don't really care if it's
my birthday or not i just wanna have a good time but you know what that means haha do you?
i think you do.....do you?

WHAT?

I feel like i may have made the biggest mistake by doing this.
sometimes it's like i don't know what i'm doing sometimes it feels
like a milion things are going on when really theres only two i can even explain it ??!

?

Can i be the girl, the girl that you met at the coin laundry?

Blame it on the alcohol!

so pretty much i think mine and my friends drinking is getting a little bit to crazy i mean it seems like everytime we end up doing some shit that we will regret in the morning lol however i got to say it makes for pretty interesting entertainment(LAAAAAVEIT)lol. I was talking with mariel the other day am we came to a realization that even if we have never liked any of the boys at the party we still go and say "you know i used to have the biggest crush on you" and we have never found them good looking. also kissing is like a must at a party don't know why but when the drinks get into the system it becomes "i have to find someone to kiss central" and at our party there are no guys that we would kiss when sober. This is not every girl no no, there are the girls that go out and say "WHY DOES NO GUY WANT ME?" and then they start listing every good quality they might have like "i'm a nice person, i think i'm pretty, i love EVERYONE"
then from there they will start to find any guy they can so that they can ask what's wrong with me! and the guy will always say nothing and you will continue to cry about your problem to this poor guy that just happened to be walking by you at the wrong time!

Yeah pretty sure we should stop drinking so much but i am pretty sure it's not going to happen lol.

was it worth it "baby"?

your such a lying bitch stop telling me all this shit that is not true and stop telling your friends that you still care when you really don't i mean i don't care anymore it's just that your so pathetic! stop trying to always come out the good guy i know no one will see through you but believe me i do. 6 hours, 6x, wow i really looks like six is just a bad number. oh yeah forget it i am not going to tell you anything about who he is you can kiss my ass.also seeing you read that letter was like clearness to my eyes i glad it did what it did to you so now you know.

Man that hurts

So the other day i let lucas shoot me with a fucking BB gun and it hurt like a bitch oh my gosh but at least i have tried it so i am feeling pretty good lol i know i'm a loser lol

i miss sam

oh man we were so young back then and UGLY hahaha but i love my friends more then anything!

What's wrong with you.

Yeah i realized that this is a huge thing for me to ask of you but what do you think this is doing to me but fine if you don't want to be a part of this then don't go have a happy fucking life! all i have to say I can't believe when i need you this much you turn your back on me and after all the stuff we have been through.

don't drink and drive

Let's just say i am happy to even be alive!

After a long and painful process i have come to the understanding that this was not a punishment but a blessing from God. I know it may seem crazy me saying that but when i sit down and think he could have let me die in this car crash he could have made me another one of his angels but no, he saved me and for some reason i think that i have a bigger plan like i am here to help someone or to do something good. Not only that but it seems that once i had this accident i started living, before i was afraid to do anything that my hurt me or my turn out bad i was always taking the easy road in life but once this blessing happened i can tell you the air smells sweeter i stop and listen to the world and people around me i love my family and friends that much more. so I am not bitter i am well who i am because of this.

I do have one more thing to say however please

DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think you know who you are!

So i can't talk to you i think you are actually a bit stupid when it 

comes to talking to girls i mean it's not your fault i think you were just born that way. I mean maybe on day you will meet a girl that just as weird as you and socially retarded as you and you guys can go and make socially retarded babys!

just a bit

I feel like i have to get everything out now because i am never on the computer so here i go!

I am afraid that i am going to lose touch

I am happy for you knowing what you want to do

I think your such a dump kid like you don't even know

I thought you were cute but i am never going to tell you 

because it's way to weird.

I am glad we got back to normal

I kinda wish i could have just seen what would have happened.

I think i may always have a little crush on you.

I think you should get the fuck out of my dreams

I wish i could be a little bit nicer to you i know what you do is always 

in my best interest.

I want to be like that.

I just can't see you as anything other then a baby

I will always love you just we can be

I think we should have a one night stand because your hot haha

I can't wait to get my money.

my ears fucking hurts.

I want a tattoo .

I can't stand you .

Sorry about lying to you.

I need to stop thinking about food(but i love food)

Can i wish for a kiss

I don't know how to tell her i need help

I wish you would tell me if you have ever liked me.

I wish you would stop acting drunk!

The guys i like stop talking to them.

Yeah

please get your own mind 

because seriously it's getting old you doing 

everything i want to do.

you don't know that i know

So pretty much i think your soo annoying 

and i think your fake as shit like can you please just

grow up and stop acting like a child and you 

can say shit about me all you want and really i don't care.

Mariel and lindsay

Guys i miss you i feel like i have not seen you in forever

finally

I GOT THE JOB!!

OK

Time to start living!

don't know

"They say that time heals everything....
but i'm still waiting."