Why can't anybody see i'm screaming for help?

You don't see me.

In my life i deal with more then you know
In my life it's feels like nothing but a down hill spiral
In my life there's a empty, sick feel all the time
In my life when you ask me i'll say am just fine
In my life you will always see a smile
man i wish i was once again a child.

Ok so here i am at school once again with nothing to do.

so i thought i would talk about how to:

use a brush - first you get it and then run it though you hair
use a toothbrush - put in in you mouth and then go in a circle.
be cool - act like me (Ha ha)
eat ice cream - well you don't eat the cone first*cough*mariel*cough*
eat a oreo - you put it in your mouth and chew or take the top off and lick away.
drink milk - do it like every other drink duh!! i don't even know why you would read that one
love you friend -call them gay everyday and they will know what you mean!
be different - if someone says yes then you say NO even if there right! GO AGAINST THE MAN.
talk shit - say this, DON'T MESS WITH MY SHIT. <<< see talking shit
really hate - think of the forehead bahah .

man i need a life

I'M GREAT

Alright so i have not been on this thing in a while.

what's new about me?
well i am happy and that's all i want to say about that
because it seems like when ever i say i am happy something
happens.

How are my friends?
they are great except or a couple people here and there
but i don't really care.

How's life at home?
well it's actually really good except my brother
he need to move out!
*cough*i want to use his room for something*cough*

what am i doing now?
well i am at school with nothing to do!

will i ever get facebook?
NOPE. lol

Why am i so lame?
Well .....Wait i'm not
bahaha jk i am but i don't know why lol.

should i stop writing soon?
Yeah most likely but i am not going to!

What shows do i love?
gossip girl and one tree hill <3

What's the new school year like?
Good so far.

Do i think D.Dv i about you shoot us all.
YEP.

Will M.L be brain dead by the end of the school year?
I think so she hits her head way more then people should.

Will j.t make us lose are hearing?
WHAT?!?! haha people who know her will get that.

How is it possible that i can sit here by myself for more then a hour
and make myself laugh?
IDK.

well i think i am going to go now.
i think a teacher I coming.

Confused

What am I thinking here?

yep

I have to say this with no lies attached, full out bold, and loud

I LOVE MY FRIENDS

Ok

I really am starting to think I have insomnia
like I can't get to sleep, and I really want to sleep.
oh well I guess it's time to hit myself over the head with a pan.
Ha. . . . ha just kidding *If you could see me I am doing shifty eyes*
OK WOW I need some sleep I am starting to sound crazy. ;)

To my everything.

Hey you,
so I was thinking about you
and I was thinking about how
crazy IN LOVE with you I am and how
when I am with you it comes so easy it's like
breathing is like eating it's like sleeping it's all just
natural and with out you let's just say "how am i supposed to breathe
with no air? That´s how I feel whenever you ain't there"

Stand for what's right, even when the world is against you

So pretty much I am sitting on the computer at 2:47 am

and I am reading peoples pages and peoples blogs

and I have come to a sad but true realization,

everyone is talking shit about each other and I know I know

I am sometimes in this population. However i think we need to

all get a long I mean seriously let just "bake a cake full of sunshine

and rainbows and we can all eat it and be happy".

I know life can seem like such a HUGE problem

sometimes but I mean life is to short to be so serious.

The next time you can fight, why not just try to forgive?

2

wow i all i have to say about you sometimes
and you bug the crap out of me but in the end
i gotta love you your my family

my style

Life is on big t.v show that i can't get enough of.

Our style

IT"S ALL ABOUT THE WORDPLAY

HEHE

Just wanted to say
I LOVE YOU LUCAS

why am i so smart challenged ?!?!

So today i was writing my bio test and
well it was SO HARD i mean really fuck my life
why oh why must i be so smart challenged
ahhaha whatever maybe my next test will go better!

IDK

My choice is simple

well so i thought, i am really

not sure what i am going to do anymore

i think whatever pops into my head is what i will do

because if i think about it.... it breaks my heart.

Just please don't hate he no matter what happens

still there

"oh yes the butterflies are still there"

going in a rush

I got that get away feeling.... i'm leaving

on a truck ,on a train ,on a car or a bus.

why don't i have energy EVER???

OK seriously fuck
i should be studying for my bio test
tomorrow. But once again i am sitting
here talking to myself hahaha oh man i need
friends hahah jk i have friends

ok ok time to study
bye!

the break

am i doing the right thing here?

only time will tell but if he's the so called

"ONE" then i will come back to him everytime!

essay

So i am in school right now
and i am supposed to be doing a essay but
instead i realized that WOW blogspot
is actually not blocked in this gay school
so i am writting in this instead of my essay

but i got to go because i am going to fail L.A
haha my bad =p

RUGBY

So i have a rugby game
on monday.....well actually i don't because i
hurt my ankle

i mean piss off much
like what the fuck! my first game and i am
hurt bjbfebefbj but it's ok next game i geuss!

Fall into me

I need you to know that you can fall into me,


that my arms are wide open and will always be.

Here for you guys no matter what!

Rocket girls

Hey where are we going today rocket girls?

got to be something more!

I'VE HAD ENOUGH

"there's got to be something more
something more then this!

taking a change yeah i might
because i believe there has go to be something more!"

about time!

It's about time i start putting first things first!

life

LIFE may not always go the way you want it to
but that's no reason to shut out the world!

SAMA LAMA

It seems like we have knowen you are whole life
yes you moved but we know you are true because
we will just be having fun and we will stop to think of
you.

I miss you sam!

breath

"Cause when your hour glass runs out of sand
You can't flip it over and start again
Take every breath God gives you for what it's worth

so i've been trying to slow it down
and i've been trying to take it in
in this here today gone tomorrow world that were living in"

don't blink

"Don't Blinkcause just like that you're six years old and you take a nap and ya'
Wake up and you're twenty-five and your high school sweetheart becomes your wife
Don't blink cause you just might miss your babies growin' like mine didTurning into moms and dads next thing you know your better half Of fifty years is there in bed And you're praying God takes you instead Trust me friend a hundred years goes faster than you think
So don't Blink"

....

"I hate it when you read my mind
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
even worse when you make me cry
I hate the way your always right
and the fact that you didn't call
but mostly i hate the way i don't hate you
not even close ,not even a little , not even at all"

stressed

Something is so wrong
i don't know if it's you or if
it's them?

i'm feeling so stressed
i feel like there is no way to get out

however lets get this straight i am not depressed
i am STRESSED there a differents!

F.L.H

FREEDOM

this is something so many people long for

LOVE

this is a word that gets throwin around way to much

HATE

this is something that truly changes how someone acts

why do these 3 words get said so much
I love you, i wish to be free , or i hate you
i think it are way of speaking out
and these words are small but mean so much!

my turn

This time it's my turn for happiness!

today....today......today is going to be a good day!!!

How?

How is it that every time i am just about to fall , I fall right into you.

How is it when i am watching a love movie i can't seem to see anyone but you.

How is it that I can't stop singing dumb love songs in the car, at work, at home with out you name somehow poping in to my head?

How is it you seem so right, even when everything else seemed so wrong?

I think it's because you were made for me!

-kay mar

little to late!

coming my way..
as thoughts cross my mind..
run and kiss him?
no stay composed walk up to him and
just say where have you been my whole life....?
wait cheesy.
next thought pull out a radio and sing at the top of my lungs
and tell you how much i need you...?
wait this is real life and things like that don't just happen everyday
next thought say hi...?
yeah yeah say hi

however by the time all these thoughts crossed my mine
you had passed me bye.

-kay mar

=)

New to this
so not to sure what i am doing!

I LOVE YOU!!

why is it so hard for the word to just come out of my mouth
with you fast heart beats, hot palms,crazy laughs
why can't i just shout it out.....

I LOVE YOU

why can't it be this easy?

-kay mar